Is having intentional arousal towards Allah like his names, dhikr(allahu Akbar, etc), bismillah shirk? I have severe ocd and no matter what I do and how hard I try I keep having arousal triggered by my ocd. I try and try and I’m always where I started. I repent and repent and try again but nothing changes. My head hurts from the ocd and I’m pushed to my limits where I end intentionally feel arousal towards anything that has to do with Allah. So, I’m asking is me having arousal towards Allah intentionally shirk? I’m not asking if my ocd causing unintentional arousal is shirk but instead if it is INTENTIONAL is it shirk?