I am a young boy who has a chronic disease ulcerative colitis, which is an intestinal disease where you have severe stomach cramps and soft stools. My illness cannot be cured as I have taken various medicines from my doctor and the hospital, and been hospitalized many times.
I have really given up everything and the illness and the incurable medicine make me look for other resort for this difficult situation I have.
I am otherwise a successful man who has job who both got married and became a father at an early age as I wanted to achieve life happiness and iman and walk away from the bad roads.
My wife and I pray, and have a really good life with our son ilhamdillah. However, my illness is incredibly stressful, as I can not participate in family activities or be at work when my illness is serious (as it has been the last few months), as I have to go to the toilet every hour approx.
My question to you dear Sheik:
I have chosen to look at what others like me are doing with this disease and that is smoking Hash (astargfurulah). I’m not happy about it, but I’ve both heard and tried it myself, even though I felt bad about it. Smoking cannabis made me feel better and I only went to the toilet once a day, subhanallah. When I take cannabis, I see it as medicine and my intention is not bad. My wife found out, and got very upset and angry, which I understand, but she asked me to write to you and ask what you think about that matter.
Namely cannabis as a medicine for my disease and not cannabis to have fun with …

I hope you will reply me soon, and thank you so much for the help.