Salam, I am a 17 year old boy from Karachi Pakistan,I am sorry but this can be a long email
From the last two years I was addicted to online adultery and masterbation and ,I have  been stealing a lot of money from my fathers money place at home for a long time and I also did\\\’nt pray Salah.I thought that I would do Tawbah when I am 22 or old enough and I had been trying to start a buisness from the money I stole,I thought that I would start a sucessful buisness from the stolen money and repay the money I have stolen from profits and do Tawbah and I would do Tawbah from Online Aduletry content when I will not need it as I tried to do Tawbah but I failed the most I could do was two weeks and that to because I was travelling.A couple of days before this Ramadan I thought that I should stop all my gunnahs but it was an extremely difficult task as the money which I stole so I did Tawbah one night I cried and I don\\\’t know what happened I started praying.This was probably because couple of days ago I had started Tawasul with Imam Zamana every night before sleep tellinng him that I did this this gunnah but I did\\\’nt want to do it.A couple of days before Ramadan I saw a video of a Shia Alim from my City saying that he had a Wazifa for every impossible hajat which was to stay out of sin and be in pure form for 40 days and do Istighfar 100 times after Isha prayer and recite 11 times Salawat before and after the Istighfar and gifting it to Rasool Allah (S.A.W.A.S) and Imam Ali (A.S), he told that how this has helped many people in situations and he also gave examples I got the confidence that because I was so addicted to this gunnah now I can do this amal and get married,before this Tawbah I wanted to get married in the age of 25 and enjoy my life till then but after Tawbah I also stopped stealing from Ramadan despite my spending habits and comfortable lifestyle,what I did was stole money invested it in starting a business,made it stable and then I would sell the buisness with no profit and claim to my parents that I did hard work on the business and then I got this money so no one questioned me,they just appreciated me but after Tawbah I had a yaqeen that if I want a comfortable life I need to have a family get out of this filthy life as Allah is the provider if he wills he will create a way for me if I do Tawakul and stealing is not the right way as my Rizq has already been written I can do dua for it and if I stay on the wrong path I will probably end up being broke,so from Ramadan I read Surah Waqiah before sleep everyday due to its importance been told by Masoom (A.S), I have been doing a zikr 3 times after Fajir and Isha about which Rasool Allah ( S.A.W.A.S) said that who every does this 3 times this at Fajir and 3 times at Isha Allah (S.W.T) will gove him so much that even his seven generations will not have to worry about it, I recite Surah Al Hamd, Ayat Al Kursi,3 Istighfar,3 Salawat,3 times Surah Tawheed,3 Times Surah Talaq Ayat 2-3 after every Namaz and I also do many amals after each prayer.I have also started the Tasbih of (La Ila ha Illlah Ul Malik Ul Haq Ul Mubeen Mustaj Libihil Ginnah Was Tad Fe He bil Faqru Sudahan O Baban Nare Was Tubtehabehil Bab Al Jannah) On Fajir prayer due to it\\\’s importance told by Imam Moosa Kazim (A.S) and many more things so I can end up in the life I want to live,as these things are told by Masoom (A.S) I have a trust on them that Inshalllah one day Allah will bless me with a source of income as these people don\\\’t tell false things and if they have told to do it its a guarentee that I will get it.The problem is that whole Ramadan I controlled myself as I was the person who could\\\’nt end up 2 days without Masterbation, but I thought to myself that if that Zakir has told something this might be true but now I regret trusting what he said as I had to go through pain to control myself from doing this gunnah on the hope of marrige that if I will marry,this need will be fullfiled by a halal manner,the Zakir said that even if there is no way from this amal of 40 Days your hajat will be fullfilled, I belong to a well respected family in Pakistan but on this age there is no hope for marrige for me as the age fro marrige is 25 here and most people commit this sin,its pretty normal but not talked about.I can not tell anything that even I want to marry infornt of my parents because here everyone\\\’s parents think they have the best Tarbiah and if I say something they will act that as they understand but will scold me nearlyy every week or so because they will know this about me so going to them is not an option,I would rather have that life again but not tell them anything like this.I controlled for 40 Days and now it has been approximately 50 days since I am doing that amal but I have achived no result.Yesterday night I thought to myself that atleast that Zakir shoul\\\’nt have lied because for me he played with my emotions and belief,then I thought to masterbate while watching content because I was just giving myself false hope that maybe Allah will create a path tommorow or maybe after 10 days but I already gave Allah 40 days to show me and now it has been 10 more days so if he wanted to do he could have done that.Then I remebered that I had not pryaed Magrib and Isha prayer I thought to myself to do this sin after the prayer because I did\\\’nt want to miss both prayers.After Namaz I told Allah that I can no longer control myself and I am gonna commit the sin because I have waited to long.Then a thought came to me to do istekhara, I had heard a method which was related by Imam Ali( A.S) to take a mud pot place a leaf in it and write Allah\\\’s name on the leaf fill the pot with water and after fard Salah pray 2 rakat and praise Allah then as Allah what is best for me then if the leaf goes on Straight direction it means that the work is better for me,if it goes on Qiblah it means it will happen but take time,if it goes left that means it is not right and if it comes towards you it means that the hajat or work will soon be done I asked Allah that if I will marry within 40 days then tell me and the leaf came towards me, I repeated it 3 times.Now the problem is that if I don\\\’t  get into a halal relationship within 40 days I will be left with no option but haram because now I can not blindly trust Allah like this,I know I should and he knows what\\\’s best for me but as an addicted person it was extremely difficult for me to not do this and now I have taken another 40 days but this time I have decided that I won\\\’t compromise this time because then the cycle of 40,40 days will never stop if I start it again like this,after this I did\\\’nt commit the sin but still have decided that this is the last time I am going to control because I cant do it now.If you have a ny amaal from any Masoom (A.S) for marrige or Rizq kindly let me know and also suggest what should I do after those 40 days if nothing happens,if you tell me do sabr and have tawakul most respectfuly I have heard a lot of this I can not do sabr and tawakul after all this as I had a lot of tawakul in that Amal but now I have decided what to do if this time the result is same.I asked from the Ayatullah Sistani website during the amal and they said to just do Sabr and Tawakul but unfortnately for me this doesn\\\’t work that way as it was the first time in my life I trusted Allah with a matter such serios that I stopped Gunnah and the resukt is obvious what I got after trusting Allah, I had a lavish life but now I got tension due to this.Please also don\\\’t suggest me to talk to my parents or anyone as I would rather die but face the shame.
Jazak Allah!